there's this paradox that I've found: When I was working full time to make a decent living, I didn't ever seem to have enough vacation days to enjoy the money I earned and take a proper trip (and/or I felt I couldn't get away because only I could do my job). But now that I have a flexible schedule and more free form jobs that haven't been making me much money, I can't really afford to go on vacation. Big sigh.

I suppose I just need to dream bigger and get clear on what I want. I'm finishing up my vision board, and I've been trying to meditate daily again—whether it's passive (sitting and focusing on my breath or the sound of the rain), or active (writing, going for a walk, or finding the Zen in housework). And TGFY (thank God for yoga). Yoga saves. Yoga changed my life for the better. It helps remind me what's really important and helps me get out of my head. If I didn't have spirituality as the backdrop of my existence, I'm not sure what I would do or where I would be.